a shoulder please?

i think i just need to cry right now

If I Die Young - The Band Perry

i love this song the moment i heard it =) had forgotten about it till i heard it on the Light.fm at a restaurant.. i didnt know which video of the song to put so, i decided to put up both of them up simply because i like the second one because of the set up of the place and the lighting hehehe.. enjoy =D

stress makes me eat............. A LOT!!!!

sigh.. i'm feeling so stressed about my finals that nothing's going in when i study.. it's so frustrating because i feel like i cant retain the facts.. more of like my brain just shut down from "over-usage" from the past ten weeks of non-stop class tests =( ugh! i'm feeling so helpless..

SILENCE..

is my best friend when i'm studying. it is also the number 1 rule in most libraries, i believe. unfortunately, some people can just be so selfish. it may be fine for the libraries in HELP, or Taylor's or INTI or which ever pre-u institution you studied at.. but let me assure you, you are not welcomed in this library if all you are going to do is announce your popularity to everyone by being the "hip and happening" crowd. don't even bother! who's ever heard of a library serving that function? don't you start corrupting silence with your gossips and meaningless chatter. the library is a place of learning and studying. if you do not intend on doing so, get out!

i'm sorry for sounding harsh but some of us have goals in life which is to do well for our exams. and not only are you not helping, you're making it worse! grow up and learn to be courteous, think about others for once and BE SILENT in the library.. sheesh!

i fixed some of my heels at the cobblers! yay!

hmm it's been sometime since i last blogged.. things have just been really busy these past few months.. i cant believe that i'm actually coming to the end of my third semester! time really flies. despite that i feel like i've experienced so much!

i've experienced the pains and joys of losing and winning volleyball matches.. and funnily enough though the disappointment of lost games was a very bitter pill to swallow, i found myself growing and learning more than i would have if we'd won all our games =) and i'm so happy that God blessed us with enough wins to secure 3rd place =D (we were 6th and last place last year) we were really the underdogs in this competition! and now i'm so pumped up to improve my skills and push our standing to 1st place next year!

i've earned a recurrent sprain in my right hand in the process though! hahahhaha

i thank God for being there for me at every class test. even more amazing is that He ensured i did not fail any one of my tests =D and He even gave me an A for one of my tests! this really just gives me more and more confidence in my ability in Christ. when i started off at IMU, i was getting B-s and Cs and i actually failed one of my final papers! now i'm getting B+s and occasional As. looking back, i'm able to see how God is just building me up from a the depressed state i was in, to becoming a stronger woman. and i plan on excelling in this course whether or not this is my forte or the fact that this isnt what i originally wanted to study. i just really want to enjoy my studies and achieve excellence in the process =)

ok i should really get back to my assignments. i just thought i'd drop an update of how i've been doing lately =)

how come Disney didnt take on Rapunzel?

 hahhaha i've always wondered about that.. the only thing i remember is 'Rapunzel, Rapunzel.. Let down your hair.."

anyways i was thinking.. i really like my hair curled.. 
so curly?? or straight??
but mummy says wait till sem 3 is over.. that's like in 4 months -.-
guess i'll just have to use that time to grow out my hair longer


oh gosh, patho test is tomorrow and i'm blogging.. sigh cant seem to concentrate today.. ok back to the grind..

trying not to let myself wallow in self-pity

i just realise something.. it's so hard to get out of disappointment and hurt, but it's much easier to switch from a happy day/occasion into gloomy/sour day.. i dont want that to be true for me..

sigh, i feel like i may be trying too hard to keep my friends.. i have this fear that i lose my friends or i lose that closeness with them because of who i am.. or that i just dont have an attractive or rather good enough character or personality for them to see me as someone they would want to be close with.. i dont want keep thinking that i cant do anything about.. if it's character then i want to build it.. i'm not gonna let this get me down..

gonna keep smiling =)

i've got 'Forever reign' stuck in my head..

hmm so it's been really long since i updated.. things were really busy lately.. so what have i been up to?
1. i worked in IMU for about a week
2. started my 3rd semester (which is kinda a killer sem)
3. danced and 'catwalked' for orientation
4. plan an illustration with jas for Jcworks for one sunday
5. help with prep for chris and angel's wedding =D
6. spent time with some very special people =) (am so glad you guys are back!)

yeah so anyways this semester is really tough.. have been trying to plan and strategise so i wont end up failing any papers and i am determine to either maintain my CGPA or increase it! yes so i am going to excel in this semester despite it being difficult! and i know i have Jesus so that's my comfort =D

sigh, part of me wants to quickly finish this course, because i know what's waiting for me when i finish my studies.. and yet i want to enjoy this moment in my life being with my friends in uni and enjoying the life of a student and being young and free from certain responsibilities yet.. i count the days to when i'm done but i feel so reluctant to let this go yet.. i wonder too whether i could be a good dietitian/nutritionist.. i would want to be the best at what i do so i dont wanna disappoint myself at all..

pics from the finale night in which i catwalked.. it was themed masquerade

two days before the finale. this was variety night. we danced that night =)

our N&D lab =) where we cook! =D

starting anew to start anew (title contributed by jian shen)

is it alright to be irritated at what one might deem as something small? sigh, because i really am irritated right now.. i told myself, Just ignore it.. guess it's funny when it's not you huh? and you dont exactly have the right to tell that person off because sometimes, lets admit it, we do some things for humour at the expense of others.. i'll let this experience remind me to be more mindful of others the next time i think of doing something funny at the someone else's expense..

on another note, i realise i shouldnt say 'crap' anymore so i'm not going to.. if you ever hear that word escape my lips, please pinch me =)


so what have i been up to now that exams are over? well, i've been back at uni practicing for a dance we're gonna perform for orientation.. it's been the most tiring days these past few days.. and man, do my muscles ache! oooh! but it was so gratifying =D we manage to finish getting the choreography all on our own within two days and today, we were able to sync all the girls so that was pretty awesome =) i think we're getting there =) i have faith in my groupmates and we make a good group.. hahahha you should hear the amount of laughter that comes from the dance room when we get together =) OH OH!!! and i must tell you.. i managed to do a handstand!! hahahha well for like a second BUT STILL!!! it was the awesomest thing ever!!! you're probably wondering why i need to do a handstand.. so, becuase i'm too lazy to post up the vid of the dance we're doing, i'll give you this link =)

OH OH OH!!! and i recently joined cheerleading (dont judge me!) and i manage to 'fly'!!! hahahah in other  words i became the flyer =D hahahha it was the most nerve-wrecking, heart-stopping, on-top-of-the-world feeling ever! period. hahahahah and jess and mun teng managed to 'fly' too!! it's so great to be able to share such an experience with them =) aaahh..

this is the 'elavator'. we did this one =)

a new skin!

i finally decided on a new look =)

tadaa!!!

anyways, just thought i'd post up some craftsy stuff i made not too long ago =)

some were made waay back, like a few months ago.. some made few weeks ago =)

different

was just browsing through channels on the telly when i came across Jamie Cullum's version of Rihanna's Don't Stop the Music.

it's definitely different from the usual electronic beats.

have yet to decide whether i like it better than the original one or not since i'm not really a big fan of Jamie Cullum's voice. but neither do i find Rihanna's voice a pleasure to my ears.

what do you think?

=D

laughter!

wow.. reading everyone's blog with their inspiring posts makes me feel like i'm just rambling empty words on mine..

anyways, finals are in two weeks.. decided to take a break from the mundane studying..

i've just been thinking to myself that i'm so blessed to have found GREAT friends from church and outside of it.. 

honestly there have been some occasions where i feel pressured to come up with something REALLY funny because i want to see the people around me laugh and laugh with them.. [hahahah unfortunately, i'm not that good at coming up with something REALLY funny.. these days i like to just listen to people talk and observe them =)] but in uni, hahaha we laugh at things that aren't funny, things not said or things not shown.. sometimes we laugh at each other and ourselves.. we even laugh when some of us dont find it funny at all.. just seeing how the other person laughs is enough to trigger our giggles.. hahaha i love it that we laugh over the smallest thing just because we're all easily amused =) yes, it's true.. i am a laughing mess when i'm at uni.. heee =D

and it's not to say that i dont enjoy myself when i'm out of my circle of uni mates.. i do =D it's so interesting that i experience a variety of emotions when i'm with different groups of people. and i like it!

so Jess, Mun Teng, Li Chin, Cheryl, Wai Sum and Kar Wei, this is for you guys, for all the laughter shared! i hope we'll still be able to laugh like that when we've reached our higher semesters =) i love you guys!

i absolutely love this version

hahaha just watch the expression of the guy playing the guitar when he saw Celine Dion.. priceless ahahhaha =)

my friend Tom =)

oh my gosh! CHEERIOS is SOOOoooooo addictive.. i can grow fat on CHEERIOS! =D

thanks Sum for giving me a pack =)

i have interesting friends.. the whole lunch time at the cafeteria in uni, Tom was trying to irritate me about my failing the driving test -.- hahaha he'd start off by asking when my next test is.. then he took out HIS driver's license to BRAG show me.. and he happily announced that his P license expires on friday -.- hahaha yeap! that's Tom for you.. HAHAHAHA you know what? once when he was introducing himself to medic juniors he came across my friend called john, and he met his match!!! here's how it went..

tom (t) : hi juniors! *waves*
-juniors look up at him and wave back-
-john looks up, takes out the IMU pen (it looks like a syringe) puts on a punk face-
john (j) : do you want me to jab your butt with this?
-in cheryl's words, EPICCCC!!!!- HAHAHAHAHAH!
(he actually used a more crude word which i wont use)

and that's not all!! so Tom slightly taken aback and a little apprehensive but feeling forgiving, introduces himself..

t : my name is Tom *smile*
-the juniors politely introduce themselves in return-
-then came john's turn-
t : hi, my name's Tom
j : oh really!? where's Jerry?
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HILARIOUS man! when Tom told me this, i had to grit my teeth hard from bursting into laughter because we were in the library.. the funny thing is, he's actual name is Shin Tom.. so he could've avoided all that if he had just used Shin Tom instead of Tom. needless to say, Tom was really offended.. john got ragged in return.

i guess reading it and not actually seeing the expression on his face makes it less funny. but if you know him enough.. it was like the joker got served yo! hahahahah i'll post up a picture just so you can put a face to the name..

he actually wore he's prefect's uniform to uni because he'd pakat with his friends to do so.. and guess what? none of them wore theirs!!! AHAHAHAHA!wish i had more pictures of his less composed expressions to show you.. sadly, this is my only one..

ok gotta get back to more resaerching -.- going online has never been so mundane.. zzzz

i scored an A (WOOHOOOOO!!!)

PRAISE GOD FOR MY A IN FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING CLASS TEST 1!!!

aahhh.. happiness =) my first A in IMU

now i'm just waiting for my results for food culture and lifespan nutrition class tests.. they hold quite a huge percentage of my GPA.. 20% if i'm not mistaken.. hahhaha and it's only class test 1! gonna sit for class test 2 next week and the week after.. trying my best to stay cool and not stress out..

CHEERIOS has arrived on Malaysian shores ppl!! awesome-ness heee!

sleepy and running on a high right now.. gotta get back to the books.. toodles!

quick update

i'm reading John Piper's 'When I dont desire God : How to fight for Joy'. it's a really interesting book! Rose lent it to me like three months ago, but i've only really started reading it now.. i've barely gotten pass the first chapter because there's just so much to think about in the book.. here are some parts that really hit home :

"When I saw the truth that God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him, I was free from the unbiblical bondage of fear that it was wrong to pursue joy."

"Only God can make the depraved heart desire God. Once when Jesus' disciples wondered about the salvation of a man who desired money more than God, he said to them, "With man it is impossible, but not with God. For all things are possible with God" (Mark 10:27)"

and so far the phrase that really hit me is the bolded text..

"I would like to help those who are beginning to see that salvation is the awakening of a new taste for God, or it is nothing."

wow.. i dont even want to elaborate on this because i think that the meaning of salvation is a personal belief unique to each individual.. for me, this is means so much =)

yeap so i think it'll take some time for me to finish this book.. but man, what a book for the season i'm in.. so apt..

ok now it's back to doing some more research for PBL.. i'll try to update more frequently now =)

much love!

driving test today was...

A DISASTER!

'nuff said, going again at the end of april =(

half of me feels lousy because i know i could've nailed it.. sigh.. i'm going to be depressed about this only till midnight.. if i dont get over it by then, please slap me..

just to cheer myself up =D this pic is hilarious!

meet my friend su! she's cool 8) (so she thinks!) (HEY!!!) (WHAT?)

oh btw, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS!!