Thanksgiving!

this is a lil of some of the things i wanna thank God for :

for giving me a wonderful friendship with belle
for blessing my friendship with jen
for putting me in a class with all my good friends in them
for staying up with me when i study for exams
for giving me an understanding cf president (now ex) to work with
for giving me a super friendly new president (brother of the ex pres XD)
for showing me that my friends actually do love me
for graciously forgiving me when i did something so stupid even a two year old wouldnt do (i'm exaggerating hahaha)
for giving me an opportunity to be a part of the 30th dec music production
for touching me in camp
there's too many to thank Him for..

the rehersals for dance practice was really good/fun/comforting(in a way)
yesterday we put on really nice make up and we really just went all out and had fun =)
here are the pics =D

this was on the 29th.. fooling around on stage =)

in the church cafeteria.. what were we trying to do?!

now that we have our make up on, it's time to hit the cams =)

john the european warrior! ahahaha

all set and ready to go!

Rose!! she sprayed our hair for us =)

joji the main character!

jen and i.. her face is super chun right right??

gloria and i =)

with belle and joy.. isnt joy pretty with the make up on?

and last but not least... KELSEY RAAAAJ!! ahahahaha

hope you enjoyed looking at the pics =)
until then see you next year!!!

Party pooper!

party was fun
actually it was sorta..
wont say it
sigh half the time was spent watching some chinese drama
i suppose the guys who watched it had fun
feeling like such a party pooper
but i really did wanna do something fun with them
i was happy that day
just not really happy that they'd rather spent time with the tv
than with actually having fun together
i guess i just expected something that was beyond me
arghh! i'm thankful that they came to my place and all with it being so far
but i.. i wanted their company, their laughter
i wanted to joke and immerse myself in their chatter
i just wanted to be having fun with everyone, before..
before they leave pursuing their ambitions
before i never see them again
before they go off to uni
before this year ends
before they dont even have time for me anymore
i mean i did have fun
i'm not denying that fact
i'm just not really in the mood right now
something happened that totally wiped out my christmas spirit
all of a sudden my dad felt like being in a bad mood
so he made all of us grumpy
dont wanna say much coz i cant be bothered to
and anyway i wouldnt want to say anything else bout it anymore
what with mum and bro not feeling well didnt help at all
i can tell
tomo's gonna be...
dont wanna say it
coz it wont change anything
listening to an emo song doesnt help either
but i just felt like it..
i am allowed to be emo at times i suppose
arent i?
i hate feeling like this..

anyhow pics from the party here

spoiling chongjyn's 'cool' look by adding bunny ears


swe jyan, =) and su


arent we cute? =)


a nice picture of hannah and i


chengjin!


yeah i know i said i wasnt in the mood. but i didnt say anything bout not wanting to get out of my gloomy state right? =) i'm feeling better already! praise God!

In the mood for giving!

ooo guess what? i met up with ming ze yesterday at mv!!! ahahahaha my first meeting with a singapore friend since i came back from singapore! and what's more he called nicole so that i can chat with her!!! i really missed her! so anyways we ate at lil penang cafe and shopped shopped for a while. he bought me my christmas present! a butterfly chain! it's really really nice! i'll show you just how nice it is!

isnt it chunted!!

nice nice?? hahahaha cf christmas party tomo! i'm so excited was on the phone with su and amelia just now and i couldnt stop saying "so how are you?" to amelia ahahahha i think i said it to her like about three or four times! so nonsense! i must sound like a tape recorder! it's just that i havent seen amelia for super duper long! anyways i invited her for the party! hopefully she comes! i seem to be catching up with all my old buddies lately. first ming ze, then nicole, then ren (she sent me a testi! actually it was more of like a short letter. boy i miss her loads!) then now amelia! sigh God is good! aahhh cant wait for tomo. everyone is gonna look so christmas-sy! red, green, red, green, and.. red and.. green! the party's gonna be a blast! though i'm kinda nervous or rather anxious to see if it actually becomes a blast! but i know it'll have it's awkward moments.

i miss belle! wish she could come for the party! i miss hang, and jen, and annora! i miss yc camp! cant believe i have to wait one whole year for it! i'll even have to battle SPM! oh dear! come to think of it SPM is next year! and next year is in one and a half weeks time! and that would mean that 30 dec is drawing closer! and that would also mean that i'd have to be ready for the dance! gosh i'm already feeling butterflies in my stomach now! *faints* hahahaha so dramatic i am! so anyways lots to do! not enough time! plus i have to handle the caroling! *faints again* it's gonna be one busy year-end! well until i have the time, i'll see you round later~! =)

More pics from camp!

belle and i + debbie and lavina

isnt she pretty?

my model tee hee =)

hooked on honey! hahahah

addicted to the camera =)

mock mock!

funny facies heheheh

was trying to balance the hersheys on my nose while the others are kissing theirs

Camp was super!!! =D

i'm back from camp!! camp was GREAT!! i got to see kelsey and nicci again!! boy i miss them so much! oh oh and on our way to camp something super cool happened!!! well all game group leaders were suppose to go on the first bus so that we can help the camp committee get the campers to sit in their games group.. so all us were happily chit chatting and laughing our butts off when suddenly belle and i saw smoke coming up from behing aaron who was sitting on the hatch that covered the bus engine.. for a moment we were like "....." then suddenly it finally dawned on us that the smoke came from the engine and we were like "SMOKE! SMOKE!" at that time the bus was still moving! all of us were kinda stalled.. and when we finally stopped at the side, belle aaron and all of us sitting at the back shouted "get off the bus now!!" and surprisingly ppl were still so calm bout it! so nonsense k! nicely taking their time till we had to start pushing ppl! and when we got down the bus driver didnt help at all lor!! he was like get everyone far away now!! assuming the bus driver had more knowledge of how dangerous stuff like these were, we were really freaked out k! had to take the luggages out of the bus and by then the whole inside of the bus was filled with smelly smoke! then that was when i saw FIRE! the oil was leaking and it was on fire!! i got really scared! so much so that when we were taking out the luggages i was praying under my breath that the bus wont explode.. ahahhahaha looking back now i feel kinda silly =) anyway when we were all safe and sound i realised i wasnt really that scared anymore! up to the point that i had time to take a picture of the smoking bus! here it is!


hahahaha can see denise posing for the camera! =)

we even managged to take a few nonsense photos at that place too
ahhahahahaha we were playing a fool with the 'no smoking' sign! it was so funny how we didnt know what to pose =D

well here are some more fun photos we took at camp =DDDDDD






shall be back with more photos =D until then.. tata~!!

CAMP IS TOMORROW!!

yes yes the long awaited time of the year has come... no not yc camp (haha gotcha there =b) it's CHRISTMAS!! i've been thinking bout christmas.. it's suppose to be a joyous occasion no? but i kinda feel emo on this one this year.. not the emo= sad, angry, upset, the-why-is-the-whole-world-against-me kinda thing.. but rather the gratefulness of God's wonderful grace, the realisation of the BIG sacrifice God made just so we could all have eternal life.. i cant help but be in awe of Him.. wouldnt you be if you'd known that someone had died for you two thousand years back.. thinking about you even before you were born.. bearing OUR sins and shame on the cross.. well this is the reason why i feel that christmas in THE BEST time of the year..
it's not about hanging decorations on christmas trees
or the snowball fights they have overseas (which constantly reminds me to pray for snow in Malaysia *winks*)

nor is it about the best/cutest/biggest/smallest snowman one could make


to me christmas is a gift. a gift of hope, a gift of love, a gift of forgiveness and a gift of grace. all in all it's God's gift to humankind.. though we all know this already.. i just hope that all of us wont for get the reason why we actually celebrate christmas.. which reminds me of a song, 'We Are The Reason' by Avalon.. though i dunno how to put up the song, here are the lyrics:

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn'
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart just to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason
That He gave His life
We are the reason that
He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all that He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is the reason to live....

a wonderful song it is.. anyways wont be around for four days starting tomo... going for YC camp!! wheee!!

The gift of friendship

yesterday belle sent me an sms i'll never ever forget(well actually she sent it to someone else too, think it's hang):

"dearest darlings! just thought of you guys and boy am i glad that we bumped into each other's world. love you for who you are! mwuacks! see you soon!"

that just really made my day! and what's more just when i was thinking bout her, i got that sms! God is just awesome! i wanna give Him all my thanks for placing me belle and hang in the same cg. both of them just rock! i love them soooo much! i'd like to dedicate a song to both of you.. well maybe the lyrics hehehe this song is by point of grace and it's title is 'Circle of friends'

We were made to love and be loved
But the price this world demands
will cost you far too much
I spent so many years just trying to fit in
Now I've found a place in this circle of friends
In a circle of friends we have one Father
In a circle of friends we share this prayer
That every orphaned soul will know
And all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends
If you weep, I will weep with you
If you sing for joy the rest of us will lift our voices too
But no matter what you feel inside there's no need to pretend
That's the way it is in this circle of friends
In a circle of friends
We have one father
In a circle of friends we share this prayer
That we'll gather together no matter how the highway bends
I will not lose this circle of friends
Among the nations, tribes and tongues we have sisters and brothers
And when we meet in heaven we will recognize each other
With joy so deep and love so sweet
Oh we'll celebrate these friends
And a life that never ends
In a prayer
That will not be long before
All will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends
That it will not be long before
All will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends

i love you both so much! i pray our friendship will stand the test of time and distance! mwuacks!

30 december!

yc camp's just round the corner and i'm super duper excited beyond excitement.. wait does that make sense? anyhow wow today uncle mike spoke during the leaders meeting and it just hit me like BAM! then we sang the song 'times of refreshing' and tears just started flowing and flowing and flowing.. i was sitting next to micheese, and the girl next to her (wont mention who) was also sobbing her heart out.. wonder what was going through micheese's mind.. ahahaha anyways cant wait for camp coz it's gonna be more than awesome

anyways arrgh feel so tempted to put up pics from the topsee turvee room but i dont wanna be horrible and hummiliate those guys..

sat's dance practice was good i guess.. the white dance was nice.. and the red dance too... not forgetting the black one of course =D hehehehe anyhow for those of you out there who dont know what all this is about.. come to FGA KL on the 30th dec 2006 at 6-8pm (dinner provided) jen jen, belle and i + a whole lot of other dancers will be dancing (of course) so pls come and be well entertained =) =) =) this is something you would not wanna miss and i'm not just saying that coz i'm a part of this production but because it truly is gonna be a blast.. so pls pls try your very best to make it.. you can ask for a map from me if you want =D

a start of something new

yes yes ms. lee cheng has decided to start blogging due to the continual persistant request from belle and micheese.. well i'm not gonna be posting very often coz i have this cant be bothered attitude towards blogging.. well i'll probly be blogging when i'm emo.. ahahahaha sigh such nonsense right?

anyways fuh yesterday's dance practice left me with a big blister on my left big toe.. but so cool! it's been such a loooooooooooooong time since i've gotten a blister.. i'm seriously considering seeing a doc bout my shin.. bleh it's super painful in fact i think it got worse but shhh dont tell joey or darren! hehehehe

you know when you sing songs that have lyrics like the song 'assuredly yours' do you ever hesistate cos you're not sure if you can completely surrender to God? i've never thought of it until hari told me bout the hillsongs concert.. sometime i think we only give God a part of our lives the parts that are not as important as the ones we wanna control.. am i making any sense here? but my whole point is.. if we dont wanna sing those kinda songs cos we know we dont mean it should we not sing it or what? sigh so confused!

hmm feeling very emo today.. ahahahha suddenly only.. sigh this hols is one of my best hols but it's been tainted with very very sad news.. my friend's granddad passed away.. i tried calling but apparently he switched of his phone.. i've had a lil history with this friend and i'm wondering whether i should continue trying to contact him and give him my condolences... or maybe it's best i say nothing... sigh our lives on earth are so fragile dont you agree? nowadays murders, rapes, robberies all sorts la are on the rampage.. just yesterday during dinner of all topics to discussed, we discussed on torture.. i think i might just breakdown and cry if i hear anymore torture stories.. it's not like ' aiyah why little things like that also you wanna cry' sorta thing but thinking properly about it, how do ppl go through it? our bodies can only take so much.. even a sprained ankle is enough to make some ppl tear.. how much more will pouring acid and removing fingernails brutally be like for those who've experienced it? we seriously take our lives for granted.. we complain when our bros or sis bully us or rejection we face in school or anywhere else but at the end of the day we are more blessed.. we are the ones having it easy... i cant imagine how much jesus must have suffered on the cross..

the song 'we are the reason', sings of us being the reason that Jesus gave his life.. can you imagine going through the pain just so the whole world could be given a chance.. i know i would feel unworthy of it.. wouldnt you? well i'll end here.. i think i wrote a lil too much.. i'm a tad bit too lazy to rewrite everything.. this is all from the heart so pls forgive me if it's a lot too emo for your liking.. it's probly just for today =D

oh thank you belle for constantly caring for me.. hugs! love you mucho mucho babe!