a start of something new

yes yes ms. lee cheng has decided to start blogging due to the continual persistant request from belle and micheese.. well i'm not gonna be posting very often coz i have this cant be bothered attitude towards blogging.. well i'll probly be blogging when i'm emo.. ahahahaha sigh such nonsense right?

anyways fuh yesterday's dance practice left me with a big blister on my left big toe.. but so cool! it's been such a loooooooooooooong time since i've gotten a blister.. i'm seriously considering seeing a doc bout my shin.. bleh it's super painful in fact i think it got worse but shhh dont tell joey or darren! hehehehe

you know when you sing songs that have lyrics like the song 'assuredly yours' do you ever hesistate cos you're not sure if you can completely surrender to God? i've never thought of it until hari told me bout the hillsongs concert.. sometime i think we only give God a part of our lives the parts that are not as important as the ones we wanna control.. am i making any sense here? but my whole point is.. if we dont wanna sing those kinda songs cos we know we dont mean it should we not sing it or what? sigh so confused!

hmm feeling very emo today.. ahahahha suddenly only.. sigh this hols is one of my best hols but it's been tainted with very very sad news.. my friend's granddad passed away.. i tried calling but apparently he switched of his phone.. i've had a lil history with this friend and i'm wondering whether i should continue trying to contact him and give him my condolences... or maybe it's best i say nothing... sigh our lives on earth are so fragile dont you agree? nowadays murders, rapes, robberies all sorts la are on the rampage.. just yesterday during dinner of all topics to discussed, we discussed on torture.. i think i might just breakdown and cry if i hear anymore torture stories.. it's not like ' aiyah why little things like that also you wanna cry' sorta thing but thinking properly about it, how do ppl go through it? our bodies can only take so much.. even a sprained ankle is enough to make some ppl tear.. how much more will pouring acid and removing fingernails brutally be like for those who've experienced it? we seriously take our lives for granted.. we complain when our bros or sis bully us or rejection we face in school or anywhere else but at the end of the day we are more blessed.. we are the ones having it easy... i cant imagine how much jesus must have suffered on the cross..

the song 'we are the reason', sings of us being the reason that Jesus gave his life.. can you imagine going through the pain just so the whole world could be given a chance.. i know i would feel unworthy of it.. wouldnt you? well i'll end here.. i think i wrote a lil too much.. i'm a tad bit too lazy to rewrite everything.. this is all from the heart so pls forgive me if it's a lot too emo for your liking.. it's probly just for today =D

oh thank you belle for constantly caring for me.. hugs! love you mucho mucho babe!