WHOA i'm so tired i'm wondering why i'm not in bed now..

oh i went to nielle'd blog.. she did something on forgiveness.. it reminded me of a quote..
it goes like this "forgiveness is the fragrance a voilet sheds on the heel that has crushed it"
what do you think?? i love this quote it's so.. touching la.. bet ya'll are like "what?!" hahhaha oh well different ppl feel different emotions laaaa! =)

ooo yoh! yesterday a group of us stayed over at nielle's and nise's place.. so at 3 am(today) we were playing taboo la.. then we watched a movie at 4.. some of us slept at 5 some at 6.. crazy!

oh we were swimming also.. we wanted to cannonball together la
nise: ok guys lets do it.. dont slip ar!
me: huh? nise, how to sleep la! so cold man!
pris chew cracked up.. took nise a while to get it though =D

oh hahahahha apparently YC has a new addition to lame ppl group... i'm telling you all of them need crutches!! hahahhaha ok la ok la.. betcha'll didnt know benard was lame right? but he is!!!

benard: this place smell like clams la
me and pris ya: huh? no it doesnt.. cant smell also
benard: you know what clams are in chinese?
both of us: ooooh yoh benard!!!

it's ok if you dont get it..

so after sunway.. benard drove me home with rachael lim and dalvin.. they came in and took some dvds with them.. sniff sniff then all they way home they were planning to go to midvalley to chillies to eat the bottomless chips with dip one =( and the molten chocolate!!! and i couldnt go! sigh today's outing was the last ever.. until chinese new year la... how sad!

ok la i'm so tired it's not funny anymore... goodnight!.. tomo we wake up to the last day of the year.. good bye 2007!!!!

these few days are soooo boring! on the other hand i feel really happy that i managed to defer my ns training.. HELP, here i come! hahahahhaha looks like next year'll be a busy year! bring it on!!!

hall of fame dance challenge

found this video on youtube.. love the dance =)

Pictures

ok here are some pics from prom
jess, jen, i and kuby
with Mr Best Dressed
emme, i, yean ling and jen
Heather, Ms Prom Queen and i
Denise!
thrishie, lin, i, jane and jen
our laughing moment
our silly moment
with Ms Best Dressed (centre)
brian, aaron and i

ok next up, camp pics
hang and i
jian shen and i
annola and i
a candid moment
i, nielle, regina and sarah
rose and i
allison and i
micheese, i and xiao
nise, i, nielle and debbie
micheese, i, and jas

TOMORROW'S CHRISTMAS!!! BLESSED CHRISTMAS YA'LL!!!!

tadaaaa!

ok la.. after much begging from some ppl.. i've decided to resurrect my blog =) so ok prom pics from? (prom la of course ;) )

-photo took so long to upload, the next post la-

and these are from high school camp... yup! i've chopped off my long locks.. some ppl say it's nice, some say i look like an auntie.. (quite insulting la, no offense to aunties out there) but anyhow, you be the judge!!!

-same goes for this one too-

so anyways after YC today, the two jans (jen and jian) and i went to piccadilly for lunch.. to meet up with school friends.. and so when everyone came, settled down and ordered their food.. smart Mr Jian Shen decided to have fun with Jane's specs XD.. and the result? hahahhaha i'll show you a never before seen photo of Jian Shen that you would just die laughing (sorry Jian Shen, i just have to la) super funny one =D





wait for it, wait for it













TADAAAA!!!!!
i dunno if i exaggerated hahahhaha but to us (samadians) ooh yoh it's funny la.. coz we dont always see this 'happy' side of jian shen XD *it's ok jian shen.. we still love you hehehehe*

end

hey all shall be discontinueing my blog.. because none of you guys come here anyways and i dont really seem to be a good blogger.. so yeah dont wanna be wasting my time.. oh but it'll still be around coz i have all your adds.. so i can check up on ya'll =) so yeah..

THE END!

do you have patience?

PATIENCE IS A SIGN OF MATURITY

do you agree??

i believe it's true.. after all only children and babies cant wait and are impatient, needing attention almost all the time..

so if you wanna be a matured person or to prove you aint a baby (hehehhehhe), pls do be patient.. i think if everyone has patience there would be world peace...

hmmm wishful thinking? what say you?

2 movies 1 drama

joji told me today that i'm extremely happy ahhahahahha so it seems, i am! i dunno why la =)

so anyways, last week i watched two movies, HAIRSPRAY and THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
i must say, this movie got me grinning like a fool throughout! ahahahahha but i was good.. i have never watch such a happy movie for the longest time! ahhahah i loved it.. they even dedicated one song to belle! *walks off singing, 'i can hear the bells!'*
oh this one, t'was good, very good.. but kind of predictable as well.. but really touching this story.. i wanted to cry! but not cool la.. action movie, tough men with guns pointed and each other, tension in the facial expressions, silence, then suddenly 'bwaaaaah! waaaaaahh!!' *sniffles* ahahhahaha so wrong la k!
oh another show i watched yesterday gave me a chance to cry ahahahhaha but honestly it's a really sad drama.. japanese.. it's about this girl with contracted some kinda brain disease and would eventually end up a vegetable and die.. and it showed how she goes on with her life and all.. very touching.. it's called 'one litre of tears' and can get you crying at every episode, you'll no longer wonder why they put one litre there.. so anyways it ended =(

got into a huge row with my dad about my career.. that's why i'm posting this at 12 am... he hogged the comp =( so yeah... got nothing else to say la.. that all for now..

happy birthday to me...

birthday was great! thanks to all the messages i got! really made my day =D + the fact that i managed to get really cool stuff!with jen in one u.. where we splurged!they were RM 12 only! so cheap ok!bought it at padini... sigh i love it!bought this with mum today.. cant wait to wear it out!

there were other stuff i bought but these were the highlights! and the fact that i was too lazy to take the picture =D

oh and i went to g4g with micheese, kat, jen, su lyn, sarah dorai and debbie... and it was amazing k! we were speechless! it's better than watching you got served and all that.. they were AWESOME! seriously speaking.. we couldnt even cheer when we wanted too coz we were too stunned! amazing i tell you.. see la! ask you to come dont wanna! spank you on the backside =)

so all in all, even though SPM is in a month's time, i thoroughly enjoyed my birthday! =) thanks again to everyone who wished me.. LOVE YA'LL!

goodbye blog, for 6 weeks

wont be updating much.. in my final most important preparations for SPM.. and before i take my leave, i leave you with this:

notice the balloons there? and a big smile? *nods* yeap just in case you didnt get the hint,
balloons = parties = birthdays = birthday girl = big smile
ahhhahahahah do you get it now? just in case you're wondering, it's 12 days away, not including today, including my birthday... YOU DO THE MATH!

it's finally over

sigh... trials are OVERR! gosh i'm so happy! the past three weeks have been draining.. cant imagine how i'd be when SPM comes.. so anyways i got thurs, fri, sat and sun off!! hurray! that means i get to watch tv, go on the comp, sleep or read a book all day... without studying!!! do you know how good that feels after a crazy 4-hours-sleep-a-day-for-3-weeks??? it feels GREAT!! ahahahha but sadly it'll only be short-lived.. after this weekend, it's back to the grind... and full force! but well it's nice to enjoy the time i have now =)

oh so yeah, my mum was utterly shocked when i told her that i only wash my face with water.. (she's into the skin care thing big-time! this year) obviously i thought little of it coz well i've been blessed with zero pimples.. so she hasten to tell me all such benefits of taking care of your skin (that i knew already) ahaha but when she came to the bad side of NOT taking care of your skin, i freaked! yes i did! so we went to guardian and bought some products (neutrogena).. the normal stuff, cleansing, toning and moisturising.. i was pretty happy, to be honest.. i mean i never did use these kinda stuff so it's all new to me, you know new stuff make me happy =).. so anyways, according to my mum, there was a substantial difference in my skin, just one day of using it (i knew i loved the name neutrogena for a reason ;)) i am truly happy! so that's the story =D

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.. partially because well it's exams and when you finish you paper early and you've double checked twice only to find you have half an hour to kill.. you tend to think! so yes i was thinking and let me tell you.. i got sooo angry! things like this happen when you think a lot.. i mean why why why do we have to study sejarah! and at least the whole of form five's based on political stuff which... I HATE! i really despise these stuff! really.. and there were alot more other things that got me mad when i was thinking them.. and suddenly, all the things the government do just DONT make sense.. honestly!!!!!!! actually the only reason i'm blogging about this is coz i have nothing to blog about.. makes me wanna stop blogging.. coz it's just been boring.. blogging i mean.. sigh!

to a wonderful friend

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS!!
you've been my bestie in singapore, never judged me, always made me laugh, helped me gain my confidence, been my only true friend then, pick me up when i was sad, danced at prom with me=), never left me out, made my day by just being with me.. oh the things we did =D

ran away from stupid brainless stalkers, shopping whenever i came down, took pics!!, so many more... anyways i just wanna say I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!!!

you've been a great bestie =)

birthday shout out!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLONDE!!!
you've been such a good friend.. thank you for every single thing you've done for me =)
oh yes and thanks for the math lesson ;)
God bless and all the best for SPM!!!

blessed

today i finally brought myself to fill up the self-evaluation paper that melody gave me.. argh!! so hard! but i guess it's good once in a while to evaluate yourself and see how far you've come..

when i was writing down my strengths and weaknesses.. i realised that i have more weakness than strength.. quite disturbing la.. and very humbling.. and as i wrote about how being in the leadership team has changed me in every aspect and how much this year has offered me in a sense, i begin to realise how much i've been blessed.. how much i have grown and matured.. so right now i'm feeling very blessed.. hmm reminds me of the song "blessed" by rachael lampa.. ahahha randomnya.. okay... back to studying!

tell me, how not to love this two wonderful babes? ;)

how great His love

you know, i did something really horrible.. and now thinking back on it (actually it was just yesterday) i cant stop crying because it breaks my heart..

yesterday i made my parents worry because they didnt know where i was (i was in house 1).. i made them look and search every single room on every floor of wisma fga.. and then i made them frantic by not answering my phone (which was in my bag) it's not something i'm proud of to begin with.. i felt so guilty when i found out that i just couldnt stop crying.. i felt so bad, so terrible, so utterly inhumane.. i blamed myself and i knew i could forgive myself, but i just didnt want to.. i thought how could i make the two ppl who love me the most in the world, go through that.. do you know what runs through our parents' mind when they cant find us at the place we said we would? or if you dont pick up even after 13 missed calls? do you know that mothers (well my mother at least) cant sleep knowing that their child has not yet returned home, no matter how late?

recently i asked God to show me or rather enlightened me that i may understand what His love really was and what it meant when He said He loves us.. such a simple and basic thing and yet i felt i hadnt fully comprehend His great love even though i sing of it every sunday.. guess what? He showed me the most painful way exactly how much He loves us.. He showed me through my parents..

try closing your eyes and imagine this.. two parents, who love their children so much searching every room, every floor, frantically.. it's almost 1030, they were suppose to pick their beloved daughter thirty minuts ago, but wait.. she's not where she said she would be.. she had been out since 4.. a million gazillion things run through their minds.. where is she? where is she? their hearts beating fast, their tired after a full day's activities, but their mind is sharp just hoping to catch a glimpse of their child somewhere, anywhere would do.. their heart refusing to believe that anything should happen to their daughter.. i believe this would be a parent's worst nightmare.. i'm serious.. if you can imagine what it would be like.. then you would understand what i'm trying to say

you see, it was almost as if i put my parents through torture.. they dont wanna think about it but what if she's kidnapped? what if she's fainted somewhere? what if she's dying and no one's helping her? what if she's in the hospital? you might laugh when you read this but i honestly, with all my heart believe that these things run through their minds.. in this world where crime is abundant how can they not worry, plus the fact that it's already late...

God's love.. far exceeds that.. that's why the Shepherd went out to look for that one lost lamb.. that's why He continued searching even though He had cut His feet on sharp rock... that is why Jesus went through pain and suffering on the cross.. can you imagine how powerful a love like that? can you just stop and think about it for a second.. you know our brains compare things to what we have seen and what we know.. say the largest thing ever is the universe.. so would it make sense if i said God's love is more than that? i hadnt understood that fully back then.. but now i know He really loves us.. that there is no measure to His love.. for what can we measure it to? not even to the biggest thing existing...

my dad shouted at me all the way home.. i knew i deserved it.. in fact i condemned myself.. how could i? i just kept asking myself that.. he said some pretty bad things.. about yc, and about the pastors.. and i felt even worse.. it's kills me that because of my mistake i actually tarnished someone's reputation.. and it also hurt me that i had hurt my parents.. so i just felt like doing this.. but it doesnt make me feel any better.. the guilt that still grips me wont go away for a long time.. but the lesson i learned is most valuable by far.. at least now i can tell my cg members about God's great love without pretending that i know when i actually dont..

i truly wonder

there are days when i wonder,
if i were any different,
from those who turn a cold shoulder,
would i be patient and listen?
in this world where sin is an excuse,
it's more than difficult to choose,
and be the minority,
that believes in purity,
so easy to fall prey,
to the distractions that lay,
waiting to ensnare me,
no matter where i may flee

would i have gone the right way,
because i wanted to say,
"here i am to make a difference,
i want to care for my generation,
no more selfish reasons,
let my heart be full of compassion,
use me to lead the lost,
back into the warmth of Your embrace,
i give my life to this cause,
from right now, i'm gonna seek Your face.
may my life be a testimony,
of Your unfailing love,
your plans above my desires
i know it's gonna be tough,
but who says its impossible,
with You as my guiding star,
i know that when i stumble,
You'll lift me up to where you are."

my life isnt perfect,
my heart has been broken,
many times i forget,
that i'm never forsaken,
my tears have been bitter,
my feet have strayed,
far from the arms of my Maker,
though my debts, He had paid.
i wish i could comprehend,
the measure of Your mercy,
then maybe i'll understand,
how to love unconditionally.

two beautifully sung songs

"O Holy Night"


the voices are sooooo beautiful!!! and they sing so effortlessly..

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"

hsm2 =)

i've watched high school musical 2 already! muahahhahah actually it's not bad.. WAAAAAY! way better than the first.. their singing has obviously gotten better =) how i watched it? well hahahha simple.. i went to clare's blog.. read that it came out already in USA so.. hahahahha i looked it up on veoh.. and i found it!!! so yeah dled it and now i'm kinda hooked on some of their songs =)

birthday shoutouts

i'm... sick.. yes sighhh!! ahhahaha but i'm getting better, praise God =)

anyways.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONGXIAN!!
thank you for always listening to my endless nonsensical gabbing..
you've been a good president to cf =) and a good friend to me..
God bless!

alia, alia, alia HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
yes i still owe you KFC!

why do i always feel like i have to look happy even though i know i'm crying on the inside?

is it really fair? or unfair?

yes if you're dying to know... i'll be going for ns... i'm feeling abit depressed so if you wanna say "hahahaha too bad" or "wakaka sucker!" dont talk to me ok... coz i dont wanna hear that right now.. and if you're also gonna say "chill lar, it's only ns" no need! i've heard that line a million and one times.. dont need to hear for the one million and second time... yes stay away from that topic if you wanna speak to me...

ok la maybe i'm a bit to0 harsh.. actually, i know i'll probly have fun, given time mind you and that i'll reap benefits out of it, yes.. i have accepted that fact.. yet i dont wanna spend three months of my life in ns! i wanted to do so much! but now... i guess in a way it's God's way of saying that my plans arent always His plans... and i'll trust Him to bring me to the right camp.. at the right time..

i thank God too for my scouting experience.. though it's not exactly amazing but at least i feel a lil prepared.. anyways thanks to those who've cheered me up... i appreciate it!

those were the days... sigh

ahhh those fun scouting activities.. i miss em so much.. especially building gadgets.. what's gadgets you ask? here's a pic of one =)
yeap!!! that's a tower.. it's quite tall though it doesnt seem to look like it in the pic... our year built it for membership drive and i'm proud of it =)
caught candid
the committee!


this is of a different year... this year's membership drive
see how high up we are??!
with a good friend, alia... sigh those were the days man... i miss em now!
patrol camp!!



some more random pics =)
celebrating christmas!
the work of a bored student
when i was 14

ok la i'm off to watch project runway.... until thennnn

farewell teachers =(

we said goodbye to two of our beloved teachers today... Pn. Marina Chin, our headmistress and Pn. Vijaya, our BM teacher... we had oreo cheesecake from secret recipe and pizza and coke from dominos! all of us stuffed ourselves and there was still one more box of pizza left =) so anyways we said our goodbye, all smiles mind you.. till it came to Pn. Vijaya's leaving, we sang Au Lang San (i think that's the name of the song) but we didnt know the words! hahhaha so we all just lalalala- ed our way through the song.. she cried half way(awww!).. which of course broke our hearts too.. then finally we said our last "Terima Kasih Cikgu"(sigh) and she was off.. goodbyes and farewells are sad affairs really.. so here's our pic with Pn. Marina and Pn. Vijaya
with Pn. Marina
with Pn. Vijaya


on the brighter side of things.. here's 4 steps to taking silly ugly photos but still feel good after that

Step 1: take a nice photo you can really be proud of =)


Step 2: you can try mimicking an animal but make sure no one sees you doing it


Step 3: it's ok to be the only one that's doing something silly


Step 4: last but not least... HAVE FUN!

hahahaha it was just some random thing i thought of in the shower =) so anyways more pics we've taken...
monkeys, edwyn and i =) edwyn's just standing.. i am the one that's really hanging
story telling can be fun too you know =) she's getting to the good part ;)
leecheng: do it like this!
edwyn: i'm doing it! i'm doing it!! look look!
kuan: i cant roll my tongue =( i think i'll just do this ok?

hahahahha that's what we do when we have a camera in hand and no classes =D

brought to you by....
leecheng, edwyn and kuan li